I kind of wish I had a therapist. Any time I open up even a little and let people know why I shy away from certain things or how some things make me anxious I just get the feeling that they’re like…wtf is wrong with you that’s not even a big deal. I probably could see one at school, but I don’t even know what I would say to someone, honestly.

Okay enough thinking. I’m going to go binge watch game of thrones now haha

Balance. Balance. Balance.
Balance. Balance. Balance.


My therapist told me to have a mantra/word to repeat to myself in triggering situations. She suggested the word ‘balance’.
I laughed when she told me this. I thought she was being ridiculous. However, today I used this mantra. And guess what? It worked.

I was able to separate myself from the…





This time last year I was unemployed, broke, and suicidal.

Today, I just got the keys to my first house.

Give it time.

Needed this today

when you hear people preach that it gets better, they aren’t joking. if it’s not better yet, it will be. 

this post could literally be saving lives rn and that is why i love this website.

Anonymous asked:
So there's this guy. He's sorta my boyfriend but then again he's not. He just found out I cut, and he was devastated. He made me promise never to cut again, but he doesn't realize that's not how it works. What should I do? I'm already trying to stop, but how can I get him to realize that I will relapse, and it's not something I can control, but simply a part of recovery?

I think you should tell him kind of how you just explained it here. You’re trying to stop now and it’d be great to have his support and understanding through that, but he’s not your cure. A promise is not your cure. While it can be a good motivator for some, it doesn’t work for everyone and you can’t have that kind of pressure on yourself. Bottom line, you’re planning on never cutting again, but you’re not sure how long it’s going to take for you to get there.

Hope that helps!


Anonymous asked:
You said to tell you something good that happened recently, so here goes: This week I got to spend some real, quality time, alone with my best friend, and it made me feel really happy. (not something that happens that often)

Happy Friday!

We’ve made it through the week! I hope it wasn’t too difficult for anyone, but even if it was, you made it! So today I’d like to challenge everyone. Tell me something good that’s happened to you recently or try to find at least one or two things you like about yourself. I know it seems kind of silly and cheesy, but sometimes you don’t really see these good things until you sit down and really think about it.

I guess I’ll start.

I love the color of my eyes and I’m proud of how much I’ve grown this summer. I feel like I can actually accomplish some big goals I’ve been putting off for so long.



I know you’re sad, so I won’t tell you to have a good day. Instead, I advise you to simply have a day. Stay alive, feed yourself well, wear comfortable clothes, and don’t give up on yourself just yet. It’ll get better. Until then, have a day.

Guys I just got nominated for the ice bucket challenge. Oh boy.


Anonymous asked:
I've been recently diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Insomnia, and Major Depression Disorder and I'm having a hard time coping even though I've been put on medication. I take Prozac and Melatonin but I still have major urges to self harm. I can go weeks without cutting and then I trigger and relapse all over again. I'm so ashamed and disappointed in myself. I tried to overdose last night but I wasn't successful in my actions. I just want to escape from life, permanently. Please help!

I think you should definitely tell whoever you’re seeing for your anxiety, insomnia, and depression about this. They may be able to give some suggestions to you as well. Please don’t try to overdose again. I know trying to quit and feel okay can be frustrating and exhausting, but keep taking your medication and remember that you can go weeks without cutting, so one trigger can’t break you. You are the one with the power over your actions and decisions. These urges and triggers may feel like they’re controlling you, but they don’t have that pull on you, okay? If you want to escape from this life of pain, you can do it without ending your own life. Think about what you want out of life and go for it. Stop punishing yourself. None of us are perfect and you don’t deserve to put yourself through all of this.


"You’re at that critical point. Make that last push."
my fortune cookie tonight