hallo :) I haven't cut for about 10 days but my sister has been really verbally and emotionally abusive and I'm really triggered. do you have any advice?
Congratulations, that’s great! :) Don’t let your sister ruin that for you. I don’t know why she feels the need to put you down, but that says more about her than it does about you. Keep doing your thing and don’t even sweat whatever she says because you are great as you are and you don’t need that negativity in your life. As Joe from The Princess Diaries (and Eleanor Roosevelt) would say, “No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.” So screw all the bad vibes and you keep up with your recovery because we’re all rooting for you here :)
So I hate to bother you, but I have no where else to go. In had been clean for about 3 weeks and things were finally looking up nd I was becoming happy. But this past week has been really bad. I work At a coffee shop and I've been left alone alot and its been super busy. And I worked a 12 hr shift yesterday mostly alone & I just crumbled. I came home and cut myself every night to make myself feel better and it did help.. Until I woke up the next day. I carved things into my thigh. And Im scared.
I know how you feel, when I was starting out as a cashier over the summer and it got busy, I would panic and feel like an idiot when I got home. Is your trigger anxiety that you get from having to wait on so many people by yourself? I can imagine how stressful that is, but don’t take that stress out on yourself. Instead of turning to a blade when you come home on a day like that, do something that releases all those bad feelings, even if it’s just taking a nap. Just think of how good you felt while you were clean and tell yourself that it doesn’t have to end when the triggers come. You will get through them without harming and you’ll feel pride in yourself for doing something you didn’t think you’d be able to. Don’t be scared, you’re in control :)
just found your blog and I love it :) I wanted to ask if you've heard of the band my chemical romance? their songs "save yourself I'll hold them back", "famous last words", and "the kids from yesterday" have really helped me; I'm trying to recover from cutting. they're really inspiring and the lead singer is too. check them out if you want?
I don’t listen to them a whole lot, but I’ve definitely heard of them and they’re an incredible band if anyone else wants to check them out! (I’ll add those songs to the list!) Also, thank you! Glad you like the blog :)
Finally done with class for the day. How was everyone else’s Monday?
"When you are immune to the opinions and actions of others, you won’t be the victim of needless suffering."
Trying to remember that public bathrooms have the most unflattering lighting because walking out of your room thinking you look fine and then catching a glimpse of yourself under fluorescent lights is just like 😰