I came across this quote today and it kind of hit me. This is something I’ve struggled with a lot in the past and even now, but something I’ve learned over time is that unless you face the things that scare you…you’re not really doing anything. At least that’s how it’s been for me. I didn’t think I could handle a lot of things that I can accomplish now. I still get scared of those same things every now and then, but I know that I can push through anyway. So if you think you can’t do something because the thought of it terrifies you, try to push through and see what happens. More often than not, you may surprise yourself.
I have such a bad habit of isolating myself. Sometimes I really just don’t feel like socializing and I need time alone, but then I start to overthink and fear that people think I’m weird for kind of doing my own thing. I probably should be trying to be more social because sometimes I isolate myself too much and I start to feel alone and it puts me in a really bad place. I just hope people don’t judge me for this as much as I feel like they do..
Honestly, I would be the worst at doing this too, but my mom caught me once and I thought she was going to hate me and all this and that and she didn’t. I know she’s my mom and everything, but still. I think if you really feel strongly enough that you want to let this person know, you should sit them down in private and just explain to them how you haven’t been feeling so great for awhile and it’s lead to you harming yourself and maybe you don’t know what to do about it, but you’re trying to figure out a way to get healthier and you just wanted their support. You could try writing it all out in a letter and giving it to them if that would make it easier for you.
Every single day is a huge accomplishment. You definitely should be proud of yourself! Congrats! :)
Feel like chatting tonight. How’s everyone doing?
To everyone back at school or going back to school soon, how’s it going? Hope you’re doing well and if not, breathe. Everything’s going to be all right.
Congratulations, that’s awesome! You should be so proud of yourself :)-Kelly
If your boyfriend is triggering you and typically makes you feel even crappier when it comes to this topic, maybe you should reflect on that and ask yourself if he’s really a good thing for you, you know? If he’s a constant source of negativity then is it worth it? If it is, then talk to him and see if you can explain again what you’re going through and how him going ballistic doesn’t help. Just tell him how you would tell me.
I think it might be because it’s generally known that self harm is a negative and destructive coping mechanism, so while it may feel like the only way to get through things, we still no it’s not the best thing to do and most people who self harm have the constant struggle of keeping it a secret, so that might contribute to the guilt you’re feeling.